Farewell...
Farewell to the days when you wanted me and I cared, Farewell to the days when I wanted you to want me, Farewell to the days when i sat up and thought about you, Farewell to all of that because i no longer care. Farewell to the days when I needed you and you weren't there. Farewell, to the smiles at the mere thought of you, the slight touches, or the kisses on the cheek. Farewell to the days of you and me......
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
done...
done....
im done reminiscing, done letting the little things remind me of you, done hoping the text is from you, done taking those frequent walks down memory lane. Its time its actually past time. I need to let this go, i am completely sick of this constantly being on my mind and in my thoughts its not even worth it. The picture is very vivid and clear and it's time i accept that and take things for what they are. We had a connection, got to know each other, and enjoyed one's company. However we are not together.....technically never were......and definitely will not be. I have cried my tears and as the saying goes im going to cry my river build a bridge and GET OVER IT!!!!!!!!
All i can say now is that i have learned something from this and i will use this experience in my near future. This situation can surely be categorized under that rule that people are in your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.
but.... (and this comment might show my vainness) for his sake i hope she do it like i do it cuz there certainly are no second chances...... I'M DONE !
im done reminiscing, done letting the little things remind me of you, done hoping the text is from you, done taking those frequent walks down memory lane. Its time its actually past time. I need to let this go, i am completely sick of this constantly being on my mind and in my thoughts its not even worth it. The picture is very vivid and clear and it's time i accept that and take things for what they are. We had a connection, got to know each other, and enjoyed one's company. However we are not together.....technically never were......and definitely will not be. I have cried my tears and as the saying goes im going to cry my river build a bridge and GET OVER IT!!!!!!!!
All i can say now is that i have learned something from this and i will use this experience in my near future. This situation can surely be categorized under that rule that people are in your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.
but.... (and this comment might show my vainness) for his sake i hope she do it like i do it cuz there certainly are no second chances...... I'M DONE !
Saturday, October 24, 2009
nice guys finish last
hello world, back again!
you know i have always heard the saying nice guys finish last. and for me personally i never thought it was quite true because i've always wanted the nice guy. However, i have noticed that the nive guys do tend to get overlooked first. But just like the nice guys finish last so do the nice girls. you would think nice girls don't but suprisingly they do. And what is funny is after these niggas have slept with more than enough women to count they go looking for the nice girls. but the first pick is not the nice ones no they want the slutty freaky maybe no standard women first.
you know i have always heard the saying nice guys finish last. and for me personally i never thought it was quite true because i've always wanted the nice guy. However, i have noticed that the nive guys do tend to get overlooked first. But just like the nice guys finish last so do the nice girls. you would think nice girls don't but suprisingly they do. And what is funny is after these niggas have slept with more than enough women to count they go looking for the nice girls. but the first pick is not the nice ones no they want the slutty freaky maybe no standard women first.
a shame right???
Friday, October 23, 2009
hmm...something to know
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so i was on this popular blog site that i sometimes frequent and i came across this post written by a guy on relationships. This was interesting to me because i hardly ever hear a guy talking about relationships unless it has some sort of focus on sex. Suprisingly enough, well at least to me, it had some validity to it. Most of it i had already know before and there was some things i agteed with and some things i didn't. So i more so did this so that if i wanted to show or tell someone or recall some of the points he made as male i wouldn't have to go find but just go to one of my post. Here it is courtesy of necolebitchie. com.........
Necole Bitchie.com: Livin’ the Bitchie Life….: "“The real problem with women in relationships is that they are doing marital acts with their man and they are not married. Examples of Marital Acts:
*Keys to the apartment
*Laying up under each other for hours at a time
*Putting things in each other’s name and you are not married (Cars, Cell phones, etc)
*Sex without a condom
*You call him your hubby or wife. (Bad words for a relationship is MY Wifey, MY Boo, MY anything. If you are not married to it, it’s not yours…)
*You are playing house. (i.e. Cleaning up their house, cooking etc...)
*Moving in or shacking up. (Why would you move in with someone without getting married? Don’t assume that just because you will move in with this dude, he’ll eventually marry you. )
*When you do these type of marital acts, you are giving a person the opportunity to use you up. They are getting the most out of you already so “why would they marry you?”."
Like i said i agree with most of it but what if you have no aspirations or desire to get married then does this still apply? And the point about saying my boo or wifey or my anything is not true if your not married because its not yours, which is true for the wifey term. But just you are not married doesnt mean that you and someone are not committed and therefore my boo or my man/woman is acceptable because before you even get to the point of marriage there should be some commitment before that if you are in a relationship.
so i was on this popular blog site that i sometimes frequent and i came across this post written by a guy on relationships. This was interesting to me because i hardly ever hear a guy talking about relationships unless it has some sort of focus on sex. Suprisingly enough, well at least to me, it had some validity to it. Most of it i had already know before and there was some things i agteed with and some things i didn't. So i more so did this so that if i wanted to show or tell someone or recall some of the points he made as male i wouldn't have to go find but just go to one of my post. Here it is courtesy of necolebitchie. com.........
Necole Bitchie.com: Livin’ the Bitchie Life….: "“The real problem with women in relationships is that they are doing marital acts with their man and they are not married. Examples of Marital Acts:
*Keys to the apartment
*Laying up under each other for hours at a time
*Putting things in each other’s name and you are not married (Cars, Cell phones, etc)
*Sex without a condom
*You call him your hubby or wife. (Bad words for a relationship is MY Wifey, MY Boo, MY anything. If you are not married to it, it’s not yours…)
*You are playing house. (i.e. Cleaning up their house, cooking etc...)
*Moving in or shacking up. (Why would you move in with someone without getting married? Don’t assume that just because you will move in with this dude, he’ll eventually marry you. )
*When you do these type of marital acts, you are giving a person the opportunity to use you up. They are getting the most out of you already so “why would they marry you?”."
Like i said i agree with most of it but what if you have no aspirations or desire to get married then does this still apply? And the point about saying my boo or wifey or my anything is not true if your not married because its not yours, which is true for the wifey term. But just you are not married doesnt mean that you and someone are not committed and therefore my boo or my man/woman is acceptable because before you even get to the point of marriage there should be some commitment before that if you are in a relationship.
Friday, October 16, 2009
and nothing even matters at all...
love is important to most, everything to some, and feared to few.
but sometimes love is as great as everyone says it is and sometimes it can be the worst feeling in the world. just like the movie there is a thin line between love and hate. you can love someone and everything they have to offer one moment and hate the very things that make them who they are the next, love is confusing, hella emotional, scary....blah blah blah....i could go on and on. now on the other hand people say that with all the problems that come along with love it is still better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. but i ask myself is this true? you know, is ignorance really bliss??? ......i think it actually might be, not quite sure.
but what i wanna know is what is the phase before love? it it genuine like? like when you are really getting to know someone, truly like the person they are, enjoy spending time with them, thinking of them constantly? we all know that before you even get to love there must be chemistry or else it wouldn't even progress forward. but what about infatuation, when you're completely consumed...not obsessed but consumed? they are sexy, sweet, thoughtful, and everything else you think they are....you see what you want. but what happens when infatuation wears off?
what really sucks is when someone can't see or simply doesn't care that you genuinely like them. like the person they are. what they do. so on and so forth. and what's really sad is one day that person will wish they cared...and you'll be long gone
but sometimes love is as great as everyone says it is and sometimes it can be the worst feeling in the world. just like the movie there is a thin line between love and hate. you can love someone and everything they have to offer one moment and hate the very things that make them who they are the next, love is confusing, hella emotional, scary....blah blah blah....i could go on and on. now on the other hand people say that with all the problems that come along with love it is still better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. but i ask myself is this true? you know, is ignorance really bliss??? ......i think it actually might be, not quite sure.
but what i wanna know is what is the phase before love? it it genuine like? like when you are really getting to know someone, truly like the person they are, enjoy spending time with them, thinking of them constantly? we all know that before you even get to love there must be chemistry or else it wouldn't even progress forward. but what about infatuation, when you're completely consumed...not obsessed but consumed? they are sexy, sweet, thoughtful, and everything else you think they are....you see what you want. but what happens when infatuation wears off?
what really sucks is when someone can't see or simply doesn't care that you genuinely like them. like the person they are. what they do. so on and so forth. and what's really sad is one day that person will wish they cared...and you'll be long gone
"and nothing even matters at all"
Sunday, June 14, 2009
...only you know
hello world back again!!!
this one is gonna be short. Things can be so complicated but yet so simple. Sometimes all it takes is simple silence. I know for me I always call or talk to other people getting their opinions and thoughts when in all actuality i knew all along. I came to the conclusion that i only see things once i'm ready to open my eyes, when its has been there all along.
Its simple really, I always wanna consult others about this that and the third. Truthfully, i feel like i need to do things when i actually dont't. When it comes down to it.....ultimately only you know....
and it has taken me time to realize that these things consistently happen because i allow them to, because of my own issues and insecurities. I could blame this person or the next but when I sit in silence i know that it comes down to me and only I know what i want and what i will or will not tolerate. and if i dont know that i can't expect others to know, or expect to know what i want from them, or expect to be treated accordingly. Its all a matter of self exploration.
this one is gonna be short. Things can be so complicated but yet so simple. Sometimes all it takes is simple silence. I know for me I always call or talk to other people getting their opinions and thoughts when in all actuality i knew all along. I came to the conclusion that i only see things once i'm ready to open my eyes, when its has been there all along.
Its simple really, I always wanna consult others about this that and the third. Truthfully, i feel like i need to do things when i actually dont't. When it comes down to it.....ultimately only you know....
and it has taken me time to realize that these things consistently happen because i allow them to, because of my own issues and insecurities. I could blame this person or the next but when I sit in silence i know that it comes down to me and only I know what i want and what i will or will not tolerate. and if i dont know that i can't expect others to know, or expect to know what i want from them, or expect to be treated accordingly. Its all a matter of self exploration.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
...COMMENCEMENT...
hello world...back again!
So yesterday was the little brother's graduation from high school. He is actually the last of my parents children to graduate, after the summer when he leaves to go off to college all of their children will have left the nest. The feeling I had watching him march down the aisle and across the stage was like something I haven't felt in a long time, its something similiar to i guess watching a kid take their first steps or my neice learning to read and write....i was just so proud and overjoyed. I am so very proud of my little brother he is an exceptional young man, very well spoken and intelligent, friendly, kind and just an all around great person. I know that he is destined to do wonderful things and will do very well in college. I am just as excited for him to go to college as was for myself maybe even more because i have already had that experience and look forward to seeing him go through it. Also, his commencement made me reminisce on my on graduation just a shy two years ago. It makes me realize how proud I was of myself then and how blessed I was to have the opportunties i've had. It also makes me realize that just how much things have changed in these past two years, they have also stayed the same. Lastly, it made me take a look at my parents and how they have been there for all four of us and done such a great job as parents. I feel the values and morals my sisters, my brother, and myself have gave us the tools to make mistakes but also to make great choices for ourselves that will lead to great opportunites and will ultimately make us the kind of people both we and are parents want us to be. If as a parent I can do half the job my parents have done....my children will too be great and i truly commend them.
THANK U MOMMY AND DADDY AND OF COURSE THE LORD!
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